I know it’s a pointless question, but sometimes I just really wonder why I ended up growing up into such a neurotic, restless, anxious personality. I feel like there’s always something hammering at the back of my mind, there’s always some hint of doubt for any decision that comes to mind, there’s never an unturned rock in my head. I’m overly sensitive to how people act toward me, I care too much about what others think of me, and I’m terrified of confrontation. I just don’t understand why this is the way I am. I don’t think it’s changeable. I think there are certain traits that are so cemented into who we are that trying to alter them is a pointless effort.
I see so many people who act so carefree, who seem like nothing ever bothers them or gets in their way. Is it just a quality of being an attractive person? Does this sort of anxious, skeptical feeling just have a tendency to develop in unattractive people? Is it because of the way my parents raised me (both are very anxious people as well)? Is it because I’ve always been the shortest kid in my class? I just really wish there was a way to forego all the complex emotions that arise from the simplest situations. I wish there was a way I didn’t feel like my default interactions end in rejection (incidentally, they usually don’t but I feel like they always do). I try to avoid self-pitying, I try to make whatever changes I can in my life, but I feel more and more every day that it just isn’t enough, that the only way I could ever be satisfied is by having an entire physical and emotional overhaul. Are there some people that are just meant to always be unhappy and uncertain?
I know that knowing the reasons why I am how I am doesn’t really change my situation, but maybe it could help put me in a better direction. Or maybe I should just stop wondering about it, because it’s only making the problem worse.
Sometimes I really just hate the life that I live and the person that I am. And I don’t really know how to change that. And no, I’m not going to strike up conversations with random strangers on the street as “exposure therapy.” Why? Because it’s fucking weird, and kind of creepy. I don’t have problems talking to people. I have problems with how to feel about them….😣
Yes I’m broad minded, but that doesn’t means I don’t have principles…
Yes I’m broad minded but, that doesn’t means I don’t know the difference between right and wrong.
Yes I’m broad minded but that doesn’t means I don’t have an opinion.
Yes I’m broad minded but, I have my own limits too.
What it simply means is I’m fine with your idea of living, I’m fine with whom you are, I’m not gonna judge you for your action and I hope you too don’t.
“Stop labeling and Judging people.”
It hurts😢when you realize that you are not important to someone as you thought you were..
It hurts when someone makes time for everyone else,But not for you😔..
It hurts when you are ignored by person whose attention is the only thing you want in the world…
“It hurts to see the one you really love loves someone else. But it hurts even harder when you find out that you were just their BRIDGE to cross over to their loved ones.”😭
“CHOSE ME OR LOSE ME..I AM NOT A BACK UP PLAN AND DEFINITELY NOT A SECOND CHOICE..”
Guyyss…You will never know the power of yourself until someone hurts you badly….😔
“When you have a good heart❤: You help too much… You trust too much… You give too much… You love too much… And it always seems you hurt the most.”
I crossed my street, they asked my caste…😣
I crossed my district, they asked my religion…😔
I crossed my state, they asked my language…😔
I became Indian only after I crossed my country. ….😔😢
A silent, but very strong message….think about it…
Today on 2nd of January,2k18 coincidence happened with me,It was unexpected When I saw him suddenly there,coincidently he came there where I was❤..I dont know whether this coincidence was good or not..But I was not expecting him there..I was shocked when my eyes saw him😵..I felt good, I was very happy..But I was sad too..It is said that”Coming early is not as good as coming just at the right moment…And he came at the very right time..
In mathematics, two angles that are said to coincide fit together perfectly…The word coincidence does not describe luck or mistakes. It describes that which fits together perfectly❤…
Sometimes It’s hard to believe in coincidence, but it’s even harder to believe in anything else..
Whether it was fate or lucky conincidence,I am glad I met him today💞
(I am writing this article for one of my friend..Words are mine but feelings are his…’SK’ for you brother🤘)
That day 30th of December,2017 was a day which we can call sweet and bitter day..Sweet because all of my friends❤ and me gathered together for having fun and we had fun😉… Bitter because at the end of the day when we gone to the restro there an co-incidence happened that is one of my friend we call him ‘SK’ saw his crush with an another guy..I saw his eyes full of tears😢…ohh yess It is one sided love…We handled him anyhow and gone out from restro within seconds..It was very difficult for him to see his love with another guyy..But….😔
Guyyss “ONE SIDED LOVE IS ALWAYS TRUE” I agree..But please try an understand that “Loving someone who doesn’t love you in return… is like trying to fly with a broken wing…It’s hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen. but it’s even harder to give up when you know it’s everything you want… I understand that the thought of her being with someone else hurts you a lot… why you are hurting yourself bro..Please dont..Always remember one thing SK we are with you💞 now and forever…
“Speaking with her always felt like sitting on a seashore😍…Hearing the waves and feeling them crashing into my feet, While gazing the setting sun and the way she colours the whole sky. I never got tired of it😄..
She is that maze,
the one you would love to chase.
She is the faith,
quite missing nowadays.
And her heart❤ is a rave,
with hopeless barricades.
She is the one,
whose tears flow,
just as lavishly,
as her laughter roars!!!
She is #Pretty#
She is #Tough#
She is #PRETTYTOUGH#😎